I had been tackled down by big bully men who just left me there on the ground all mangled up. I saw myself on a large playing field dressed in P.E clothes and I was totally eating dirt. I’ve heard it a million times, and I even got my 2015 planner’s cover with the song lyrics “I Wanna See You Be Brave” Hmmm, maybe I am prophetic, cause my thought process was….”I need to be brave in 2015.”Īnyways, It’s like all of sudden it’s God singing the song to me and I go into a vision. I was listening to a random set of songs and then Sara Bareilles song, Brave came on. I got prophetic words that were aimed to get my head up, but things were so heavy that it was still really hard for me to lift it.Ī few days ago I was working out, cause since moving here I’ve gained like 25 pounds and that’s without eating the Costco cake. God even sent an angel to comfort me a couple of weeks ago, and it gave me some hope that God was with me and going to help me with two very hard situations in my life. Then I sense things in the spirit but look in the natural and think “MAN I’M REALLY NOT PROPHETIC”. I re-looked at everything I have done the past year to see where I have screwed up or didn’t amount. I have asked myself and those close to me a million of questions only to come out of it even more confused. I’m gonna be real and honest I’ve had a few pity parties, not sure why no one has come to join the party. But thankfully there aren’t many caves in San Diego, but the giant chocolate cake at Costco has been tempting.

NO, I am not going to share…get your own cake and get your own cave.

Majority of my days I want to crawl into a hole and cry Elijah style and eat a giant chocolate cake all by myself. It would be an understatement to say that the past two months were hard.

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I wanna see you be brave meaning